This might be harsh, but … You need a better attitude towards life. You’re too scared to do things you say you want to do (barista) or can’t be arsed to do them (40 min by car, really?). Do you have anyone in your life who would give you honest advice? Find them and listen to them.
You should read some Sartre
Stimulating the economy
Wonder where this is
Depends on the recipe, but in general I’d prefer to eat first.
Mise en place makes things soooo easy. When I meal prep I chop up all my veg on Saturday and stick it in the fridge, then cook on Sunday. Makes the whole process less overwhelming than doing everything in one sitting.
Good and Cheap cookbook
Budget bytes recipe website