I wish this worked for me. I don’t get paranoid or anxious anymore, but it just doesn’t relax me at all. I basically feel no actual body effect, except my heart starts racing. Like, for hours. My eyes get like in the picture, but it’s not cute, it’s painful. I also get ravenously hungry. Like if it wasn’t for my racing heart and bleary eyes I couldn’t focus on anything else but shoving shit into my mouth. I get confused of course, which - duh - but I can’t even focus on enjoying the daze because of all the suffering.

Guess I’m stuck with booze on the holidays.