I tried the whole exercise shebang. I’ve actually been more consistent about it than I’ve ever been in my life. I started running back in March and I had never done it before! I kept waiting and waiting to get the mental benefit people say you’re supposed to get out of it…but I never have. Honestly I was going through some huge shit and the supposed mental benefits are why I picked it up in the first place. The only thing it has really give me is something to do and occasionally a brief distraction (altho I have been able to be upset while running so it’s not even always distracting).

The other day, someone at work was telling me how wonderful they feel during/after a run and it was just wild to me…I’ve only felt that maybe a handful of times ever. Is that what people normally feel when they run?

I don’t get a “runner’s high” or other mental benefits from it. But I keep doing it because I feel like I’m supposed to now. Overall I find exercising rather unpleasant.

Do you think the mental benefits will ever happen for me or does my brain just not work the way that other people’s do? I’m getting close to the 1 year mark now since my running journey.